In Search of Divine

I am stupid, ignorant, and filthy sometimes, Sometimes I am angry, I am guilty sometimes. Does this make me human? Does this make me a man? Does this helps me do things, In ways that I can! Working eight hours, Paying out my bills, I am secretly dying, With few shocks, few chills. Eating survival, and breathing out pain, Endlessly drifting, in a bottomless drain. Can this all be over, Will I ever win, Will this last forever, Or is this just a dream. Can this all be over,  Will I ever win? How long I'd been counting, My flaws and my Sin!

Chunne ko mere vaaste, laakho ghazal khili, khuch sar Kalam hui mere, khuch khaak mein mili. khuch murjha rahi hai, Mera dhyan maangte, khuch muskura rahi hai magar, Chune pe mere Yu!

I am inundated with no thoughts  and my mind is going blank  this world is such a wonderful place When there is no ego left to shrank

Audit Time!! Every year mostly in or around first week of January, I sit on my bed and ski through the past year events. I audit myself. And I do it with utter honestly and immeasurable enthusiasm. I record the conclusions then and read them as and when I feel like reading it in coming year(s). I have done this since 2007 to be specific, as that was the year when I was added to Boston and subtracted from Mumbai. But I kind of regret why haven’t I done this since I was 10 or 12 years of age. In fact I truly believe that this should be taught in every school and encouraged by every parent. I wonder whether Sir Ken Robinson would agree. Auditing is essential. Every business knows this. It keeps things in balance and helps in commencing any future plans. Living a human life in 21st century is almost like running a business, cause they both deals with profits and losses, goals and planning, building and maintaining relationships, etc. I mean we all do this in some way or the other.